moving on

I have met someone that shows a very energetic interst in me. I would be a fool to turn away and not give this person a chance. I can not and will not let the hurt drag me down any more. I don't like feeling this way. I have been lied to and hurt and it doesn't matter if it was intentional or not. Hurt is hurt. I will not make someone else pay for the pain that another has caused me. I will not back down and be defeated im better then that. This is me moving forward and trying again. I don't give a fuck if anyone likes it or not. I am not afraid of my past or the choices that I made. I will continue to grow and become a better person. There is no secret life in a past. I do treat the past like an old book once you have finished it's time to move on to another one. I have been conflicted between my pain and my love as to which road to choose. I have always believed that inside each one of us there are two wolves. One of them is full of hate and evil, the other full of love and light and both of them fight for control. the one that wins is the one you feed the most. I will not feed the negative. not anymore. I used to feed that blackness inside me and it took me down roads im not proud of. I am finally walking in the light. So if you hate me great leave me alone cause im not in your life to cause you any trouble. If you love me than welcome to the dawn of a golden age. rejoice for there is still a heart here that beats with strength and love.

c. A.D. 100

You say that you are feeling my absence very much, and your only comfort when I am not there is to hold my writings in your hand and often put them in my place by your side. I like to think that you miss me and find relief in this sort of consolation. I, too, am always reading your letters, and returning to them again and again as if they were new to me -- but this only fans the fire of my longing for you. If your letters are so dear to me, you can imagine how I delight in your company; do write as often as you can, although you give me pleasure mingled with pain.

truly sad

How pathetic to attack someone on another persons blog. you can't even do it any other way than anonymously. If you have a problem with someone then you should have the courage to step up and speak your mind straight away. don't hide in shadows and innuendo. I have done things in my past that I am not proud of. I have not always been the enlightend soul I am today. I am a man and I am flawed. I will not hide behind that fact or shy away from it. What you did was low and wrong. You should never go through another person and act the way you did. you are a coward! you are worthless and weak. If you got something to say then step up and say it to me. if not then shut the hell up and leave me and my friends alone. keep it up and there will be consequences to your actions.