moving on

I have met someone that shows a very energetic interst in me. I would be a fool to turn away and not give this person a chance. I can not and will not let the hurt drag me down any more. I don't like feeling this way. I have been lied to and hurt and it doesn't matter if it was intentional or not. Hurt is hurt. I will not make someone else pay for the pain that another has caused me. I will not back down and be defeated im better then that. This is me moving forward and trying again. I don't give a fuck if anyone likes it or not. I am not afraid of my past or the choices that I made. I will continue to grow and become a better person. There is no secret life in a past. I do treat the past like an old book once you have finished it's time to move on to another one. I have been conflicted between my pain and my love as to which road to choose. I have always believed that inside each one of us there are two wolves. One of them is full of hate and evil, the other full of love and light and both of them fight for control. the one that wins is the one you feed the most. I will not feed the negative. not anymore. I used to feed that blackness inside me and it took me down roads im not proud of. I am finally walking in the light. So if you hate me great leave me alone cause im not in your life to cause you any trouble. If you love me than welcome to the dawn of a golden age. rejoice for there is still a heart here that beats with strength and love.