Regrets

What do we learn from the things that we lose in this life? Do we learn value? I think that it stands to reason that in most cases we learn nothing. We push on and never look back and say " WOW!". That pure moment of learning. That instance when we have perfect clarity about where we have been and where we truly want to go. It saddens the heart when we understand that we came away from the good and the bad and have no truth. No moment of perfect nirvana. What does one expect to learn? Understand when I say we expect to learn nothing. The honesty of such a statement leaves much to be questioned. We do learn we just don't realize it. Most times the lessons are so minor and small they get overlooked in the greater scheme of things. But why do we doubt it so much. Other situations warrant a larger case of learning and stronger clarity. But what do we do now? How do we use that information. How do we transform the lessons and become better than we were before?

I have written before about fear. I have discussed how we all live in fear of the unknown. We choose to stay in bad situations and we choose to not move forward with life because we don't think our life is ready or that there is some great mystery we have to figure out. Bollocks! The secret of life and the meaning it holds is to live life without fear, without remorse and without regret. If you find something in life that brings you comfort and you feel a pull towards it then don't doubt the moment. Never let it pass you by. Yes in this life every choice we make can either bring us joy or it can bring us pain. But what if? We take a chance and step into the void that we find our hearts desire. The past is like an old book. When it is done and over you put it down and you start a new one. Never look back but always push forward. There is an old saying that we have heard most of our lives. " Why put off till tomorrow that which you can do today?" Stop questioning things that feel right. Stop letting that fear hold you back. All these doubts bring are pain and confusion.

When we are all young we hear the phrase Carpe Diem. It is supposed to inspire us to grasp life and make the most of it. Seize the day! In my youth I heard this statement and I tried my best to live up to it. I have lived a wondrous and full life of love and pain. But I'm not dead yet. In my new youth I have discovered a new phrase. Carpe Ominous. This statement makes allot more sense. Seize Everything! Do I waste my time with my writings? Does anyone i give this to really read it. Will they take these moments of wisdom that are rare and few and feel inspired? Make a positive change for the better in their life or do they just discard my words and continue to live as they always have? Afraid and alone. I fight! I struggle to find that which eludes me each passing day. It is so fragile that even to mention it causes it to spook and run faster. I know that someday I will find it and in the end I will make it mine. I never give up and I never surrender and neither should you. Whoever you are.