3 A.M.

It's 3am and I can't sleep. Torn and battered with the conflicting thoughts that swirl inside my head. Why does she see herself the way she does? How can I get through the walls that she has built up? I feel as though she wants me to sore above them and rescue her. Her feelings and love for me ring clear in the warning that she gave me. She says she has a cold heart but I see that as false. I see that her heart was shattered and fragile and that she is afraid of it being shattered again. It can only take time for her to see the full measure of my resolve. You are the inspiration of all that I do. You bring thoughts, emotions and desires out of me that I thought were long dead and gone.

When you lose a love you think that you will never recover. You feel as though you must have failed. You weren't strong enough, didn't devote enough or maybe everything about you was a huge dissapointment. I could have done more to make it work! YOU ARE WRONG!!!! For a relationship to work it takes two people to work it out. If our spouse or partner isn't willing to give what they promised us then it is doomed to fail.. Not from our lack of action but because of theirs. You can't hold yourself accountable for the short comings of another.

A person who loves you gives not to keep you in their life but because your happiness is the most important thing to them. Your smile is paramount. You see what you have but you think you have ruined it cause you were scared and pushed it away once. Open up your eyes and realize that when someone loves you they are there for you no matter what happens. It's just like in the vows our ex's broke. To love, honor and cherish. In sickness and health, good times and bad till death do us part. It is easy to love someone and stand by them when things are rough but can you stick by them when everything goes right?

No amount of pushing no matter how far you run it won't change the way I feel about you. in the end we will both be miserable and I will still be in love. You chose to find me and to be with me. You chose to open your heart to me. I did the same for you. We are both responsible each others hearts now. You didn't want to give up on your ex because you didn't want to fail or dissapoint.. I bring out emotions and feelings in you he never did so why are you so ready to give up on me? Isn't amazing what you think about at 3 A.M.