A night terror

I wake up in the night and I feel you there. Cobalt eyes staring at me in the darkness. Why do you stalk me? What have I done? I try to be a good man and live a decent life. I am a father and a friend. I help all those that I can but in the end you still seek to take me with you. How can I fight something such as you? I feel your touch as you linger near me. The stagnant breath of ash and dust. How can this be happening not again.

What can I do to stop this. Is there a bargain to be made? I would not mind facing you if my life were complete. Please give me more time. On my knees I beg for just a little longer. I know you can taste my tears. Does this bring you pleasure? I shudder at the thought of my pain and fear being your entertainment of the moment. You can not do this to me not again. I beat you before and I know I can do it again. I know that I have fight left in me somewhere. Wait I get it now. You were playing with me the last time. You knew this moment would come again and now it is the final moment between us when you will take me away from all that matters to me.

This is so unfair. I have so much left to do. I want to see my kids grow up and graduate. Have children of their own. I need to feel the love of a woman for more than a moment. I know that someone will love me just give it a chance. Don't take me now. I know this is going to be a bad choice for the both of us. Stop watching me and leave me be. Let me live. Let me find that love before you take me. If there is anything of God in you then you will grant me this mercy I plead for with every fiber of my being. There isn't anything like that in you is there? How could there be? You couldn't do your job if there was. Well I will do my best to fight and live as much as I can in the short time you give me. I will show you it is possible to do this. Carpe Ominous!